I remember when I got here God told me He was going to do a DEEP work in me. I had and still have no idea just how DEEP this rabbit hole goes.
I have been praying and believing God for breakthrough in my finances for quite some time now. I know I am where I am supposed to be. God has called me here to this place. God has given us words that He is going to bless us and our business.
My accounts are overdrawn. I am behind on my rent for each of my 3 business locations. I am in debt up to my eyeballs. I don’t know how I am going to pay rent for where I am living. I don’t know how I am going to pay payroll. I don’t know if I will even have a business or an income soon.
I was faced with a choice today. I find myself in a powerful time of worship. God’s presence is here. Here I stand in the presence of the King of all that Exists, the King of the universe. We were singing about how great and good God is. I don’t want to just give God “lip service.” I want my worship to be true and from my heart. I am faced with a question. Will you worship?
Could I declare, “He is good” “He is great”? Would I believe and declare what I know to be true or what I feel and what I see? I am torn. I am broken. I am battling facts VS truth. Truth is higher and greater than the facts.
The facts are things don’t look good. The facts are I am in an financially hopeless and impossible situation. The truth is He is always good. The truth is He is always faithful.
I know He is good. It doesn’t look like it. It doesn’t feel like it, but I KNOW it is true, so I will declare what I KNOW is true. He is good. He is great. He is faithful. His love NEVER fails! Greater things are yet to come.
I know I will look back on this season years or perhaps months from now and I will speak of His goodness and faithfulness. Why wait? I am choosing to declare it today. I am choosing to declare it now.
He is GOOD! He is for me! He is faithful. He is always GOOD! I will declare it! I will believe it!
In the beginning of this journey I made a declaration that “I know my God is faithful and He will deliver me, but even if He doesn’t, yet will I praise Him.” God is putting my words to the test. Job said, Even if He slay me, yet will I trust Him, yet I will hope in Him.
I am beginning to understand what it looks like to bring a “sacrifice of praise.”
David said, “I will not sacrifice to the Lord that which costs me nothing.” I want to be like the woman with the alabaster box. I choose to pour my life out for Him, on Him. I will sacrifice that which costs me everything!!
Will you allow Him in? Will you give Him access to those hidden places? Some places you know exist, others you don’t, nonetheless, will you let Him in?
The darker the night becomes, the more I long to see the Glory of Your face shinning on me. I long to see Your face. God, let the light of Your face shine on me! In order to have peace that passes my understanding, I must give up my right to understand. I trust you completely. Nothing is impossible. All things are possible with You God! You can do whatever You want to do God. Have your way in me.
